I haven't done any good blogging lately. Sorry. I haven't been much into the computer. I've had blog posts in my head. But, I haven't felt like ever putting them onto the blog!
Our baby is due in 3 weeks. Scott is traveling for business for the next 2. Pray she is not early!
Last week, before his really heavy work load began, I was laying in bed at 3am, unable to sleep. As the clock ticked on, I let the troubles build up. I wasn't feeling up to managing everything alone. What was I going to do? I didn't want to have to deal with Gillian crying every time I told her no (no, you can't have a candy right now. no, you can't eat that stick of butter. no, you can't watch more movie....) I didn't want to have to listen to Peyton screaming when he wants to be held all the time, but it is just not possible. I didn't want to get more groceries. I didn't want to cook more food. I didn't want to think about any of that. I was feeling so ready to just be in the hospital bed, post birth of Moira, not having to do anything but rest & nurse her.
Before I finally went to sleep that morning, I finally told myself that I didn't need freak out so much. I could just make Spaghetti for dinner. What's wrong with that? I wouldn't even need to go to the store...
Things have been fine. God is good & provides the grace needed - if I depend on Him! The last few days, I have noticed how delightful my kids are. Are they happier lately? Is it because I have had a better attitude? I don't think so... Maybe I just now noticed things that I was noticing before? Anyway. They have had such funny bone lately. It is so cute. It makes me happy!
I still have a lot of things left on my nesting list to do. But, I am really pleased with how much has been done, too. My home is slowing becoming a more organized place. That is a lovely thing. I sewed new curtains for the kids' bedroom. And, the valances are partially done. I have the fabrics for Moira's blanket quilt mostly ironed & almost ready to cut. I have almost everything together that I want to put into a gift package for the kids, while I am at the hospital. Things are getting done... And, what doesn't get done - I'm okay with it!